After company retrenchment, I felt depressed as I could not find a new job due to economic crisis. So I decided to take a break to look after my baby boy then. Since then, life is a moment of joy, a moment of stress…
No more office work, no more office politics! I became full time mother and personally involved in selecting a playgroup school, bringing him to school, following up with his teacher on his progress, etc, etc.
Things started to change when I gave birth to my 2nd child (baby girl). My elder son would scream and throw things around. His behaviour was totally different from the child I know. Despite our punishment, he continued to throw tantrums. Then I realized he was trying to catch our attention due to jealousy. I began to spend more time with him when my girl was asleep, to reassure our love to him.
Before I gave birth to my baby girl, my elder son would sleep in between my hubby and me. I would chat and sing song with him on the bed. However, after my girl was born, he had to sleep with his daddy in the other room as we worried baby’s cry might disturb his sleep. BUT son missed sleeping with me. He would often come to my room and request me to pat him to sleep. His earnest made me feel sad. Despite of my tiredness, I agreed to his request.
Then one day, son came to ask me, “Mummy, can you carry me now?” I wondered why he asked me that question. He replied, “Now baby is out from your stomach, can you carry me?” I was really surprised when he said that. I guessed he must have yearned for me to carry him all this while since I cannot do that during my pregnancy.
Looking after 2 kids is really challenging and tiring at times especially with a hyperactive son and a super sticky baby. No more social life for me, no more good rest even if sick. Time for hairdo becomes a luxury!
In a family with single income also means no more showering of kids’ favourite toys and books. Every dollar and cent count.
Though life may not be the same, I become more enriched. I truly enjoy every moment with my bundles of joy. I would certainly treasure every moments that I have with them.
Mummy loves you dearly, Wen and Tong Tong!